A Tribute to Danil Shargimardanov - the unforgettable
Saturday, October 28, 2006 at 11:45 AM
SUP.Guess this year is the most unforgettable 2006. With so much happenings, this school term ends with a saddening and shocking thing i never would have ever dreamt of it. So much of happiness and sadness, but this was one of the worst thing that ever happened. Tears just dropped from my eyes everytime i thought of it. Our memorable and talented, Danil, passed away on his birthday. It just saddens me, totally.
I heard this news on the days before we had to went back to school after a day of holiday, which was on tuesday, 24th. From ivan, he said that my classmate, danil had just passed away. I thought that it was a joke, & was still laughing over that matter, but at the same time brooding over if it was true. But to my horror, it was true when i heard it in school on wednesday. After hearing it, almost all the girls, started tearing, BADLY. especially my dearest sihui.
The first thing i thought of was my family, then my dearest & loving dear and then my friends. How was i to live and go on if they were gone? speaking from my heart, i really do not know what to do. I cant bear to lose any single one of them. Feel so upset and hurting, at the same time, i thought of Danil. Was he really dead? Was he really gone? Confusion stirred in me, because i never ever thought of a healthy boy like him would just leave like that. But it was true. No doubts, no questions. IT WAS TRUE. He left just like that.
I though of the times, whenever he was around in class. I used to dislike him at times, but seeing him changing into someone better. His musical talents was never doubted and he was very good in his flute. With such talents, such ability that no one had, & a unique character no one would have ever had, he was gone, wasting it all. I weeped for him, because i miss him in our class. I still remembered how i got to know him in class. He talked to me, asked about my name. & i told him my nickname, and he called me LYNZI. I will never forget that! never ever! The times where he used to create cool music in class. i remembered the bottle. He blowed it and out came some nice music.
I went to his wake yesterday. I still couldnt believe he was dead. i could not face reality. Even on my way to the place where his wake was, i continued to shed my tears. Just simply of him being gone, really leaves a deep impression in my life. It was even worse when there was a board writing his name. I STILL COULD NOT BELIEVE THAT HE WAS GONE! i really could not. True enough, he was there, in the coffin, lying motionless. i was hoping of him to wake up, for him to breathe. but, nothing stirred. His father was very depressed and kept crying. His eyes were swollen red, and he kept thanking us for coming. i cried till my eyes went swollen. Even though wasting all these tears were of no use, but to think of it, i hope all our tears touched Danil's heart. Everyone walked round his coffin. He looked different. He looked fake and weird to me. But Danil's beautiful face, will never be forgotten. I will always remember him, forever i will. I cried hardly, badly and terribly. But, i read the words written in the room. It was by Revelations 21:4, in the bible. It says, 'He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or crying or pain, for the old of things have passed away.' i kept reading this, & GOD enlightened me. he really did. i stopped crying. & i felt better.
This is going to be a long post for its all for our Danil to be reading it. He might not have a chance, but he will be touched. IM SURE. (: Was so tired after two long cryings for each day. Today was Danil's cremation. i didnt dare to go, im afraid i would cry again. i dont wish for him to be gone, but he is. So, i just wanna pray for him. To rest in peace and be enlightened by god, & be well taken of by Him, be blessed and loved by Him. Danil will be well-protected, loved, well taken care of, happy, free & blessed. (: My greatest condolences to Danil, as well as my everlasting missing of him.
This is a very big significant to me. It really is. I was shocked stiffened but a good thing to learn about. I just wanna let all those reading my post to learn there, you have to TREASURE and CHERISH every single moment NOW in your life. Do not do things that you will regret, you wont what is planned ahead for you. Those who are always finding faults and quarrelling with your siblings and parents, its time to change your thinking. You wont know when they will eventually leave you. Treasure them, they are priceless and always there for you. For mine, im changing my thinking for them. i will treasure them & give them my care and love. No more making them angry and upset. There are my TREASURES. (:
& for my dearest dear, you are a big significant in my life too. I just want to let you know, that i cant bear to lose you, I CAN NEVER LOSE YOU! I will give you all my care, my love and my everything. I love you deeply with my whole heart. You will never be forgotten by me! You are in my heart forever! (:
For my friends! My dearest! (: I also cant bear to lose you all. I will treasure each and everyone of you and never ever hurting any one of you again. You all are also a great significant in my life! ^^ love you all !!!!!!!!!
Through all these, i realize how much i treasured so many things. (: I hope i enlightened people who are reading this! Life is fragile, treasure them. CHERISH is the word i would say you MUST HAVE IN YOUR EVERYDAY DICTIONARY!
Danil, you leave a deep impression in me. I can never ever tell you how i felt, but right now, i hope you understand my feelings. I hope you are touched by everyone's tears! Each tear is like a pearl, priceless and very expensive. They are things that you can never buy with money. A very meaningful one. (: May you rest in peace and let Him bring you through yr ETERNAL LIFE! ^^ WILL MISS YOU DANIL!
Take care all. So glad for the PSI to at last DROP! haha. Drink lots of water.
LAINE, VONNE, QIANN, CIA, HUIX, RU, Take care all of you. Dont be upset anymore. Even though his gone, i believe he knows our feelings for him. (: MUACKS! i love you all! especially my family & my dear dear!
Revelation 21:4
There will be no more death nor pain nor death, for the old things have passed away.